As we all know Birth is the beginning, so does that make death the end, or just a beginning of something new?
Dark Secret
Darkness all around me,
I feel you, suffocate,
No one else is around my misery,
Can I give anyone the key to the gate?
No one realizes the pain,
The weakness that I feel,
The darkness swallows with vain,
My nightmares feel so real.
The shadows that hide,
The tears I hold back,
The old me, has died,
Everything is black.
I run, but I still see it,
It is hard to face,
It pulls me in, bit by bit,
It takes me back, back to that place!
From the memories, I try to run,
They are destroying me slowly, not fast,
I’m growing weaker; I know they’ve won,
It haunts me, my past.
The sadness, it has brought,
I feel the guilt,
I can feel the inside rot,
The darkness inside me, it built.
I feel so insane,
These words are my last,
Darkness has won, my tears fall like rain,
I can’t run anymore, it has won, my past.
My past has won,
I’m sure this is true,
The damage is done,
My heart, darkness controls it too.
I’m leaving now,
You may not want to see,
You might not want to know how,
Today is the death of me.
Thanks for being here,
Goodbye, it’s time, I’m untied,
I have no fear,
It’s time that I died.
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Half Way Home
Goodbye
That day you left,I thought it was the end
I said goodbye forever My friend
Built for pain,built for love
That you were my dearest love
I said goodbye forever and then
I said goodbye my greatest friend
In the stars there you are
Watching me never too far
That day you left,I thought it was the end
But I'll say goodbye for now my dear friend
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My End
I have never felt so lonely
I have never felt so scared
I have never felt my heart bleed
I wished I never cared
You killed me on the inside
You punched me on the out
You pulled out my heart strings
What is this about
He broke my heart
He sliced my soul
but did he really?
I guess I’ll never know
I tied the rope tight and strong
I hung it to the beam
I put the rope around me
I jumped and never screamed...
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Death
This be the verse you grave for me
Here she lies where she longed to be
Home is the Captain, home from the sea
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Three a secret
Three may keep a secret:
If two are dead
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Desperation
It's just always been my luck
To be ready to OD, but have only one pill left Jeez, that just really
sucked but the cutting isn't working fast enough
I'll have to wait until I get more so Hell will just have to wait
I'm down,with 300 against my score but I guess I'll let death deal with fate
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Crypt shadows
Elegance calls,black stained glass silk and fur line my crypt
softness and hardness in death truly comes life in my dark home
Of my final rest
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Darkness
Scratching, clawing, biting
I crave another’s life more then my own
Smiling, draining, laughing I smell the essence of life and death
Fleeting, running, flying the sun rises and I fall
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Death
As I lay with hands upon my chest
Deep within , my heart beats its last
lips ,now curled in deaths coldest pout As the sun sets and twilight
comes shadows move closer as his heart beats like a jungle drum loud ,
calling he moves within the shadows deep dark eyes that see deep within
ones cold soul hands warm to the touch open my eyes with one gentle blow
the moon is full the shadows dance as my dark prince and I vanish Into a
world which is ours
Darkness till the moons next fall
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Grave
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on freshly fallen snow. I am the sunlight on
ripened waves of grain, I am the gentle autumn's rain
I am the bright star that shines at night
I am the soft quiet of a Eagle in flight
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there, I did not die.
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The Dark Lord
The fire burns with the might of hell,he commands us to throw down our
veil,when we do,he looks us through, tearing down the wall, he watches us
fall.Going through a portal, which leaves us immortal,
immortal to be killed for all eternity.
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Regret in death
I wonder now if I will regret every harsh word that I ever said.
I wonder if I made you proud? Fate has decided
The time now is only to be aided, love and laughter will become my creed
For hope and joy is what I need.
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Night Walkers
When the sun has set, and twilight comes deep below a heartbeat drums
When night comes and the day is gone night creatures come from crypts,
everyone and you know the night feels very wrong
Rising up to greet the night red eyes, seeing without benefit of light
Elegant dress from days gone by, now walks dead that was alive.
Once alive now shun sunlit skies doors locked tight now out goes every
light you lay in your bed, silk pillows gently cradle your weary head
Then shadowed breathing softly starts... "Shh tis only me" cold is my
embrace as I hold you tight your shivers calm as I hold you through the
night.Head tilted back your white throat open to my gaze
Embraced as moonbeams slant like crystal raze my head comes down
my lips pull back one small shiver and your body goes slack
"Just a kiss" is whispered as a door closes with a bang one small sharp
sting, as you feel hot white fang it's all you feel, then warmth and I am
gone no ill is left for you to feel
The sun rises and you awake my hunger for now is greatly slaked
You ponder the dream yet nothing do you remember only eyes as red as fires embers.
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My Wooden Prison
I’m here in my own little world.
As I look around, I realized, I’ve invited more people into my world.
I’ve stepped out of my shell, but in my own little way.
I’m still wondering and pondering, thinking and crying,
So confused about my life, not ever knowing what to do.
Until one of the people I brought into my world, is the love of my life.
But who could have known the way I was, all the difference we had,
Pulling us apart,no one would have known, we have lasted this long,
But somewhere deep in my heart, I knew we were,I knew we were going to
wed.I knew we would be together forever.
So far I’ve been right,We’ve had our ups and downs, But we’ve always got
through them.We’ve never followed the road, We’ve made our own path.
And now I’m walking down the aisle.With him standing at the alter waiting
for our everlasting kiss, the fist kiss to the rest of our lives.
Knowing and wanting,so badly we’ve kissed and soon moved on to the rest
of our lives, living them the best and longest that we can, knowing that
soon one day, We’ll be lying in separate caskets, Next to each other,
Deep in the ground.
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These last poems for the time being are for a special man who treated me as his own, loved me as his own and in the end passed with great dignity and peace. My father though not of blood always in heart.. TSgt.John T.Jameson
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Dear Dad
Dear Dad, We love you,
We miss you so much
Your love and your kindness
Your soft gentle touch
If we had to live life over
We would choose you once more
If it meant losing you again
It's worth all the tears in the world.
While our hearts are now filled
With sadness and tears
We had many good memories
You will always be near
The day that you left us
Tears fell from the sky
Our hearts filled with sorrow
Your final goodbye
For years you did fight
And struggled to stay here
But you sent us a sign
When the end was quite near
Thank you for sending
That white butterfly our way
Your soul is at peace
And not far away
Your body has died
But your spirit lives strong
In each one of us
Where it forever belongs
Your time here was short
We wish you could stay
But they need you upstairs
The angels called you their way
Spread your wings and fly
Up to heaven you go
No longer will you suffer
Down on earth here below
They won’t hear you coming
So softly you walk
When you get up to heaven
Make sure that you knock
You struggle no longer
You are free of pain
Your mind is clear
And call us by name
You can play chess once more
Through the woods you can bike
Drive where ever you please
Up the mountain you may hike
In the breeze we hear your whisper
Feel your warmth from the sun
Upon the lake we see your reflection
In the stream we see you run
Until the day comes
That we cross over too
Our family will not be complete
Until we meet that day with you
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I Love You Dad
I love you Dad with all my heart
And hate that we should be apart
Our love is a bond that can’t be broken
You may be gone, but never forgotten
I remember the day you went away
The pain in my heart is every beat
But I know that eventually, one day
We will, once again meet
The loss is something I can’t describe
I’m really going to miss you
One day I’ll be back by your side
So I can hug and kiss you
There are no words to tell you,
Just what I’m feeling inside
The shock, the hurt, the anger
One day, will gradually subside
Things will never again be the same
And though I’m hurting quite bad
I will smile whenever I hear your name
And be so proud to remember my Dad
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The Battle is over, you have won
Now lay aside all cares and worries, its time to go home.
You stood by each and every "small solider" and we stood by you..
Now your new home will have a beautiful view.
Its time to rest and peace to seek..
of course every now and then look upon us and take a peek.
One lost but not forgotten,
Good-byes are said.. and all stand at attention.
A great man .. all salute and give our fullest attention.
As he passes you by in solemn silence.. He seldom spoke unless something important.
I stand to the side and with shoulders back and head held high.. you claimed me in your heart and before all.. and my father ever shall you be.
May when my someday comes, when it is my time , I with great pride and head held high once more will I stand at your side.
I loved you well father.. and though greedy I could be... I now can smile and with strongest voice... now set you free.
